There’s Nothing To Tell (没有什么可说）
My first full-length shadow play based on my Fulbright fieldwork, premiered at In The Heart of the Beast Theatre, June 2012
So what does one do with all this research? Over a year of fieldwork and what do I have to show for it? When I returned to the states in late 2011 and began explaining my absence, most people’s initial question was ‘where can I read more about your work?’ This question of writing about the work is entirely gracious – how nice is everyone to want to know more about Chinese shadow puppetry? – but it is also a default that I’m learning to resist.
Our Western academic approach to non-western traditional performance research often leaves practice-led researchers (researching by way of the practice, not – say – with literary review) in the lurch. The written practice has long been used to validate non-verbal creative forms to varying degrees of success. For those of us who’s practice is actually about the non-verbal aspects of craft and cultural transmission, doubly difficult. To write about a living, breathing, tradition such as Chinese shadow puppetry and its craft is like, well, like trying to sum up the whole of your parts in an online profile, perhaps. It is wholly, embarrassingly inadequate.
So, what does a practitioner-researcher show for all that work? Those months of learning to scrape cowhide, sharpen knives, study design aesthetics and symbolism, cutting and painting leather, gathering oral history accounts, encountering a traditional form older than I can fathom and meeting masters on the other side of the world – where does this ten months of fieldwork go? If not in a paper, then where?
Practice-led researchers have explained that one of the key elements distinguishing them from other more traditionally accepted research methodologies (quantitative, qualitative) is that the output resemble the form in which you research. It is assumed that less is lost in translation and the output is poised to reach a greater audience. As practice-led research is a relatively new field, some are skeptical. I am not.
Before I left, I had the prescience to apply for funding – knowing that if I waited until I got back and had to start from scratch on a new project, my experience would be too distant to utilize in a creative process (not to mention my momentum stalled). The grants came through towards the beginning of my Fulbright year, so I carried this question with me throughout: where does the work go?
Early on in the year, after meeting just a few of the last remaining practitioners, I knew it would be a story about them. The passion, the tenacity, the obstacles, the stories – each of their biographies full of twists and turns about why they started and how they made it – were inspirational, to say the least. I combined elements of all their biographies into one fictional account of a grandfather’s journey as a shadow puppeteer in 1930s China and into the modern era. These stories felt like better insight into the incredible legacy Chinese shadow puppetry has garnered along the way than a straight adaptation of a shadow play would have been.
So, with notes overflowing, thoughts in a tangle and heart-achey from leaving one of the best adventures of my life, I returned home and began working on a new full-length piece for the shadow theatre.
In short, the process was painful, rewarding, revelatory and cathartic. I absolutely would not have made it without such brilliant, patient and hilarious collaborators who indeed knew when it was time to stop banging our heads against a wall and have a dance break. The learning was heavy and fast and has already cycled back around to inform my research again.
The research and this process resulted in a show I’ve never been more proud or more emotionally attached to in all my 20 years of theatre making (I’m older than I look). And now I can confidentially say, this is what I do with my research.
We are in plans to put it up for a full run in March of this coming year in the Twin Cities area. We hope you will join us!
Thanks for reading~
Collaborators: Stephanie Watson, Dan Dukich, Rebekah Rentzel, Shawny Sena, Derek Lee Miller
Here are some pictures of the show to give you a better sense of the show’s welcoming, beauty and scope.